bad day today

Today marks two weeks since Grandma has passed away, and it is also the day which she was cremated..I was able to go and view her one more time before they cremated her..I feel a bit of peace doing that, but also a bit of sadness..She was so cold from being in the freezer for so long, and her face didn't look as it had before..It almost didn't look like my Grandma..She had the same hair, but she also seemed to have more wrinkles on her face..Maybe I just never noticed them before because she was so beautiful and always smiling that it never seemed like she had them.

I miss my Grandma that is for sure..I have good days and I have bad days..The hardest right now for me is when I take the kids to school..Grandma is not home when I get back and there is this big empty void I have to fill..I know in time it will get better, but for now it is sill so raw..

My husband has been so great throughout all of this..He just holds me when I start crying and is so patient about everything..Today I had no desire to do anything..It was a free for all for dinner..I just wanted to sleep away the pain..

The kids are wonderful also..Derek just got home from going to a friends house and asked what was for dinner..I told him it was a free for all..Whatever he wanted..The little ones got bologna sandwiches..I still have not eaten..

My faith is what keeps me strong right now..I know I will see my Grandma again.