So, I decided to help Grandma out by taking a gardening and landscaping class since I know nothing about the subject..It took forever to get here in the mail as it is an online course, but it finally got here...right before she went into the hospital..Needless to say I have not picked it up yet to start the course..I guess it would be a good idea to do it as I can still take care of her flowers and maybe make the yard nice for her..
I just hate gardening, but I guess I should get my butt in gear and keep my promise to her..I know it would have made her happy for me to take care of the flowers for her.
I will picture her smiling as I make the yard nice..I will learn how to take care of everything.
The one thing she loved about this house that she didn't like about her old house is that the deer always ate her roses at the old house and they never touched them here..She was able to see them every day and I would cut one for her and put it in a vase by her side so she could enjoy them..When I would take her to dialysis and we would go down the stairs the roses would always be right there and she would smile and tell me about them..
I need to learn how to care for them properly..I can at least do that for her..
Today was a hard day emotionally..I was trying to stay busy as today marks one week exactly that she passed away..I happened to look at the clock as I was washing the dishes and it was the exact time she passed..
I do know things will get better in time, but everything is so raw..
My faith is what keeps me going..The fact that I have a loving Heavenly Father and I know she is with him and she is not suffering anymore is the greatest joy I could have now..
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